Life on Life's Terms

It's April 25, 2014 and I'm just on my laptop doing different things like checking emails, fixing my resume' and other things, but so bored, so lost that I don't know what to do anymore. Anyway, the reason for my title is because I really don't get the meaning of it so, I'm going to interpret it to kind of make sense to me. Life on Life's Terms to me means going by the rules (which I get), but dang , can I catch a break????? I live in a Transitional Housing Program still and I am greatly appreciative to have a roof over my head for and my daughter, but the stuff that we have to deal with here is really starting to affect our mood. I go to work faithfully everyday and I try to make sure my daughter goes to school everyday like she is suppose to so that no one says anything to her. I mean, we are doing what we are suppose to do, I try not to complain, and I don't ask to go anywhere (meaning asking for a weekend pass, that's a whole other story), but people here just get away with so much that it's unreal. Yes, I should focus on me and my daughter because I am in recovery, ( from my choice of drug marijuana, and alcohol); trust me, my life is going well since being clean and sober for almost 3 years (May 9,2011 is my clean date), but as much stuff that I have to do, i.e., urine tests, NA Meetings, and Mental Health, to me feels like that is going to make me relapse, but I know that I'm way stronger than that, but I am getting so frustrated, overwhelmed and everything else. I feel like I am at my wits end, but I have to keep my focus for my daughter's sake because we are all we got, and I'm trying to make her understand. I know things will be thrown at me in all kinds of ways and I will constantly go through trials and tribulations, but why, when I'm doing right, good things don't happen for me??? Yes, I know, I have to be PATIENT. Ho long do I have to wait for things to work to my advantage???? I just don't get it. So, I guess Life On Life's Terms means, yes there are rules, life will come at me in all types of ways, I just have to keep sticking and staying I guess, continue doing what I'm suppose to do, focus on me and my daughter and not worry about other folks who aren't doing right or following rules, and just keep believing that in the end I will reap the benefits of me doing what I am suppose to do, and I know that in God's time, things will happen when it is suppose to. Maybe my blog doesn't make sense to any of you, but somehow, it does makes some sense to me. Well, I guess that's all for now. My life is a little bit unmanageable and I don't know, eventually, things will be alright.....EVENTUALLY. Till next time friends.....good night and God Bless.